Continued from The First Time: 'But He Didn't Hit Me'
I stopped by the mirror in the bathroom on the way out to let Shay and Mike up. Not so bad. It wasn’t that obvious, I thought after a quick scan for damage. It was dark in our apartment, though. All the lights were out. I stepped out into the hallway and my eyes took a couple of seconds to adjust. I practiced covering my mouth with my hand as I walked down the stairs, in a yawn. No that would only draw attention. I got downstairs and walked to the door as naturally as I could without looking head on, positioning myself so that my profile would hide the busted lip on the left side of my face.
I could see Shay and Mike standing at the glass doors. I opened them and before they even stepped in, I saw the look on Shay’s face. Mike’s mouth dropped.
“What happened?†She said.
“We got into it,†I admitted, adding nervously, “he didn’t hit me.â€
“He didn’t hit you?†My sister looked at me incredulously. “You sure about that?†She fingered the swell on my lip.
“Shay,†I locked eyes with her convincingly, “You think I’m bout to let a man hit on me?†The irony.
“I tried to push him and hit one of those big closets up there,†I continued. There had been pushing and shoving.
“It’s over now, everybody’s calmed down, but … I hate to ask this, it’s just … been so crazy with us lately.†I stammered nervously.
“What?†Shay hurried me along.
“Can you guys stay at a hotel tonight? I’m so sorry to even ask. I just really think it’ll be more comfortable for everybody.â€
“Yeah, if you come with us,†Shay retorted.
“No, I can’t do that,†I began.
“It wouldn’t be any trouble. Bring the baby,†Mike added.
“No, that would just make things worse. I need to stay here tonight,†I said. “He’d never let me take the baby with me, anyway. Not now.â€
“I don’t feel good about this, Mel. I know he’s not gonna try shyt with Mike here. Just let us stay tonight and we’ll get you out of here in the morning when he goes to work,†Shay said.
All of the sudden we were hatching plans of escape. The hallway was bare with a high ceiling. It resounded unforgiving echoes.
“Shay, really, it’s not that bad. It was an accident and it’s over now. We gotta get out of this hallway, my neighbors can here everything.â€
I’d left the door to the apartment cracked. We walked in and I did not turn the lights on. I stood in the living room with Mike as Shay went to the bedroom to gather her things.
She later told me she and BD had this exchange:
“Hey, BD. Can I turn the light on?†she’d asked entering the bedroom. The door had not been closed.
BD was rocking the baby in the glider, facing the open doorway leading to the living room.
“I’d rather you not,†he said flatly.
“Well it’s dark and I can’t really see,†Shay said reaching for the switch. The room brightened.
She took a few minutes getting her things together quickly from my closet on the wall right next to BD.
And with her bag in hand looked at him and said, “Well good night. We’re going to a hotel.â€
He hadn’t said a word, short of asking her not to turn the lights on.
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Shay rushed out into the living room with a twisted face.
“He is weird,†she mouthed exaggeratedly in a whisper. What is wrong with him? Why is he acting like that?â€
The front door was already open. I put my hand on her back and softly pushed her over the threshold. Mike went after.
“Mel,†she said one last time. She was asking me again to go with them.
“It’s okay,†I said, this time forcing a half smile that I’d hoped would make her comfortable enough to just go.
That night, I lay in bed with the baby spread eagle lying asleep in between me and BD. We'd taken to sleeping like this. The baby between us kept me from having to brush up against him at night and it kept him from brushing up against me. The thought of him touching me made me cringe. We hadn't been romantic since near the time I found out I was pregnant and the baby was almost eight months old now. That's a long time. His advances had become less frequent but I was no less disgusted at the thought.
Sometimes, I'd sleep on the futon in the living room just to get away. He forbade me from taking the baby with me, though. I don't think he was really scared I'd actually tiptoe off in the night. I think he just wanted to make his position very clear about the difference between my leaving and my leaving with my son. Though one may have been inevitable, the other was an impossibility.
That night though, as I lay awake thinking about how quickly this weekend had deteriorated, I still hadn't made up my mind to go. The inevitable, though, was fast approaching.
For all my attempts to rush Mike and Shay upstairs into the darkness, I had no idea how thankful I’d be for those couple of minutes when not one, but two people had seen me, disheveled and bruised just moments after one of BD’s black-outs. That night, under the harsh florescent light in our buildings foyer would be the only evidence, ever, to back the claims I’d later officially make of emotional and physical abuse. I wouldn’t know the importance of that day until almost a year later. As it appeared that things were falling apart, they were really lining up into place.
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This entry is almost too hard to read. I cant imagine the pain you must of been in. Having to deal with this at your own home and with your family visiting. What an asshole.
YOU SLEPT IN THE SAME BED WITH THIS DUDE?
HELL NO
why is he being so possesive? He's acting like he gave birth by himself and i just love reading can't wait until you leave it just keeps getting better and better everyday.
Well like I keep saying that's what happen when you mess with your friend's ex boyfriend and your boyfriend's friend even though your friend told you he was crazy. You played with fire and got burn.
Hmmm, where is Hate Hate & More Hate?
His foolish comments are needed so we can be totally disgusted for the day.
Damn shorty as the story goes on I really feel you. At first I think you really did pull a dirty move but you tried to make the best out the situation. But with this cat it was deeper than just you. I think he was taking out his beliefs on you and forcing them on his child. I do commend you for tryin to make it work but some of that shit was just too much. And top the fact that deep down he knew you wanted to be with Digital and deep down he wanted to be Digital!!! That really added more gas to the fire. Good post shorty keep it up. When your book is a best seller shout out your blog writers!! Nah but seriously keep doing your thing. And stress to these ladies that its better to be broke and by yourself than to be with somebody and be miserable and unhappy. You can do bad by your damn self.
Dare Lewis says...
Hmmm, where is Hate Hate & More Hate?
His foolish comments are needed so we can be totally disgusted for the day.
March 13, 2008 1:08 PM
Sounds like something else is "needed" in your celibate life . . .and I'm not talking about the hate I spew.
My take on it is BD literally smacked some sense into the dizzy broad and I commend him for it. Mel knew not to leave or even worse leave with the little nigglet.
Like I said before if she was fucking her man, all of this bullshit could have been avoided. Everyone knows the best way to calm the average beast is pussy!!!
ps - that guy who commented above me sounds like a homo
This was just too hard to read.
Wow I was reading older post you posted and you were a horrible person. You was fucking BD and Digital like you had no control over yourself. Like you wanted to have your cake and eat it too. How could you ??? You know they were friends. Now I see, you really do deserve what is happening to you. There is a such thing as keeping your legs closed and having a serious commitment, not pretending then fucking who ever you please. Damn You
niggas kill NNL me talking bout how a chick need 2 keep her legs closed. SHE did what she wanted 2 do, which no different then what niggas do.Niggas will fuck ur momma, ur sister, and ur cousin 2 and then come home and try 2 fuck u. Do ya thang Mel cause in the world we live If u don't put u first nobody will, Its fuck or get fucked.
Wow-he only gets more Ike Turner-ish. The lies we women tell ourselves to make things seem okay. And we always tell ourselves we're fronting so everyone else on the outside won't know-the truth is we're lying so much-and clinging so closely to those lies-because we want to convince ourselves that we're doing the right thing by staying. Funny how no one ever believes our lies except us-Shay and everyone else saw through you like a pair of lace panties. I've been there, and I lied to myself solely because I was in love...I can't imagine the pressure you must've felt to pretend all was well for the sake of your baby boy.
msthang says...
niggas kill NNL me talking bout how a chick need 2 keep her legs closed. SHE did what she wanted 2 do, which no different then what niggas do.Niggas will fuck ur momma, ur sister, and ur cousin 2 and then come home and try 2 fuck u. Do ya thang Mel cause in the world we live If u don't put u first nobody will, Its fuck or get fucked.
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Niggas kill ms Thang because if it was up to her she be out fucking your brother on y'all wedding day. Yea she did what she wanted to do like the hoe she was. Some women need to learn how to have self control over themselves just because a man wants to have sex with you don't mean you have to open your legs and let him do the damn thing. There a such thing as karma and in the story she feeling it. I don't care what SOME niggas do because I'm a female and female aren't suppose to act like niggas we suppose to have self control and not give it up to everyone.
This stuff is real?
ive always been soft on ladies but seriously everything that happens to you you deserve accept for the abuse no women ever deserves to get hit i mean its funny how everything has pork so you cant have anything thats a huge sacrafice plus its funny but no women deserves any kind of abuse at all feel me
my fault didn't mean to see he wanted to be with Digital. Meant to say YOU really wanted to be with Digital.
And P.S.
@Hate
Ain't nothin homo bout me. It's funny you must not have nothin to do because all you do is post negative shit on every blog no matter the topic.
Not saying that it's right for a man to hit a woman, but have any of us stopped to think about what a woman does to provoke it? In many cases it's the WOMAN who throws the first licc in a battle. But when a man strikes back, now he's automatically considered as Ike Turner's lil brother?? Please....We rant and rage over equal rights so here's one for ya: IF YOUR BAD ENOUGH TO THROW A PUNCH, BE BAD ENOUGH TO GET PUNCHED BACK!!!